Somehow in the midst of searching for myself in the sea of life, I found an abundance of habits and desires I had suppressed. The habit of procrastination, the desire to please others, the habit of sleep, the desire to be alone and not alone. I know that last one contradicts, but I'm sure plenty of people have had the desire to be alone, or left alone and once they got it they wanted to be around other people. I am going through a new journey, and I am enjoying the life God has given me, and as I trust in God, at the same time I am not listening to God. I am such a disobedient child and although I know it, and I know that God will still love me, I also know that he wants better for my life. God has provided me with every opportunity and instead of grabbing hold to it, I am letting it drift...
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